他的‘他’

事实很多时候都很难想象。我今天一个人开心在买衣服，突然想起我的阳光美少男，就发了个简讯给他。不久后我就到停车场开车走人，天啊~你也太好了，让我真的看见他。我身边的车里就是他，还有他的爱人。我不赶看，因为我怕我会忍不住哭。所以我假装什么都没看见，一路向前开。我的眼泪不停的溜，我也不知道该怎么好。其实我一直都很想看看他的‘他’的样子，现在真的看到了，可是为什么我会哭？

我在想，如果我没有在哪个时间离开，应该不会怎么痛。我自己其实也很清楚，不是我没有努力，只是无论我怎么做，都是‘不可能’，因为我不是‘他’。

I wanna be with you

I had a high fever and coughing my lungs out,I don't even wanna step out of my bedroom on this wonderful Sunday.I didn't take a shower or even changed my clothes for the whole day long,just keep laying on my bed.Surprisingly my Hunk called,I rushed to pick up the call and he wanted to have dinner with me.Of course I said yes and next I rushed to the bathroom started to groom myself.

We meet at the restaurant,and then we did had a nice dinner together.Next he wanted to have ice-cream so we went to Desa Park City and bought an ice-cream from the seven-eleven store and we head lake side garden walking slowly together side by side.I hold my pain because I want him to feel good with me.

He did noticed my expression and my coughing,so he walk even slow to wait for me.He is sweet he is nice he is everything I ever wanted.I feel so nice that I get to have one of his Sunday night.

Dear God,I really wanna to be with him.

我要的男人

老实说我以前都觉得我要的男人一定是有学历，有钱，有样子，如果可以要会唱歌的。但是今天我突然有些改变想法了。我今早出门时差点车祸，然后我叔叔说他觉得我车的电箱有问题。我就去问车店，换个电箱要RM320。我什么都不懂，只好打去问朋友。

说真的在那瞬间，我很开心。他很有耐心的教我。我好想觉得有些被保护的感觉。其实有个懂得汽车问题也不错，又或者会修理水电工的也很好。

日后我会开始多留意男人在这方面的天份，因为这都是日常生活的必需。

Duromine

这是个减肥药。它可以让你忘了吃饭，矢眠，心跳加快，口臭。我现在开始吃，我希望能在3个月内瘦下来。我不是贪心，我只是真的没有别的办发了。

《XOXO》Urban Chat Slang

Do you ever wonder what this XOXO means?I did some seaching on Google,and I've found the answer.Its a urban chat slang meaning Hugs and Kisses X=Hugs O=Kisses.Just like LOL,LMAO,AFK and etc.Well,its been so much these days that we are so lazy to type the words out.

Anyways,nice to know that now.

Jolin 养瘦

真的非常期待车公主蔡依林的新书《 养瘦 》。我要学公主变美变瘦。

My Ex-Bestie

Mindy was my bestie for sometimes ago.We've been so close and so happy that we even meet up almost everyday.Somehow thing's goes wrong and we are now worst than stranger.She had a new boy,but its not because of him we got far.She is not the girl that I knew before,she is now such a good actress,starting to act like she's such a pity girl and I'm the bitch who got jealous with her.Even she can act and blind folded the world,she will never success on me.I am the only one who clearly remember what she said and what she done before she got this boy.

I thought I have a good bestie that worth a million,but wealthy had her soul.I understand everyone wants a perfect and better life.I didnt blame her,but I will never gonna treat her the way I used to and we are not gonna be true friend like we always do.

Anyways,good luck for her and so long goodbye Bestie. 

从新出发点

歌 手：钟舒漫 - It's A Beautiful Day 歌词
熟悉的花店渗着香气 昨天应该很刺鼻 路边的光景我从不理 却察觉有份明媚 难堪别离 迟归晚起 因信奉缺憾美交上了伤悲 沉溺後期 能吃不味 一瞬直觉赠我重生的勇气 It's A Beautiful Day 我竟不知 It's A Beautiful Day 验证一次 雨後阳光的意义 微笑过日子 It's A Beautiful Day 换上新衣 It's A Beautiful Day 别再失意 制造人间的美事 才算有大志 人观入微 有惊有喜 於碎事细部里找到了心机 留些日期 游览天地 阴雨亦觉是美才可找到你 It's A Beautiful Day 我竟不知 It's A Beautiful Day 验证一次 雨後阳光的意义 微笑过日子 It's A Beautiful Day 这里开始 It's A Beautiful Day 没有终止 这是奇蹟的意义 微笑里会意 In Every Way, Enjoy The Day

Virtual 3D Chat

People fall in love in this stupid 3D chat for over and over again.Do we realize that we're so lonely in reality that we rather escape to the virtual world?We spend few hours or even the whole day just to meet the virtual lover and we even spend real money to buy virtual product such as outfit and furniture.What do we really gain?I have my own experience,I gained friendship,my bestie Sherry,Ash,Candy and Leanne and love from an Indian guy named Jade.We doesnt know how do we look like in real but we just fall for the way we talk and behave.
When love develop,we end up addicted to this chat and continue to spend more and more real money.This is all virtual stuff,nothing real,but we still find happiness and love here.

Dear God what is happening to human now?

一個人

今天的天气很热 太阳很大。自己去吃早餐，我就去了甲洞吃面。今天特别想起你，今天是我和你分手的第三年。我自己去了你很喜欢的西刀鱼圆面挡，还记得那时候我不怎么喜欢陪你去吃因为我觉得哪里很热又很多车。

我坐着吃面，望着人来人往，我突然忍不住流眼泪。原来你真的再也不会回来我身边了。我安静的吃完那碗不怎么好吃的面，想象你在我左边吃完面后都会吸烟。我真的哭起来了，我好想再次牵起你的手。

我好怀念你我的一切

Month of May

I'm turning 23 this year.I wish U were with me every year celebrating this moment. Its been 3year we're broken up.

I still love U the way like I used to,I still miss U like I always do,I still wanna be with U like I wanted to,I still cannot forget U from the day U went away.

*close my eyes-put my hands together-make a wish*

^_^

人的心

我很想知道，现在的人是不是都没有了良知。今天在蛋糕店里工作时，突然有人中年女士昏倒。我赶紧的跑前去帮忙。当时店里还有三位顾客。他们竟然什么都不帮，还说赶时间卷身就走。

我的心很痛，为什么现在的人会那么冷血。是不是不认识就能见死不救。假如有天，你或你亲人在外面昏倒了，同样也没人要帮助，你会不会心痛？

不是要你的钱，至少你会愿意帮忙就是最好的行动了。

All About Your Heart

Close your eyes and Feel this song =)

Canon IXUS 105

今天和表妹去逛街，去了PAVILION又去KLCC。我应该花了RM1200多吧。吃“龙的传人”，送了个包包给表妹，买了鞋子，买了衣服。最后在KLCC买了这部相机RM699。是属于自己的第一部相机吧。以后就可以拍下生活的细节。

好吧，我要加油再工作！

Amazing-Janelle

I've found a video clip with nice song and interesting comics.This song is from Janelle tittled Amazing.The video clip are from a comic named Pon & Zi by Jeff Thomas.

It's about a yellow and blue doodle loving each other so truely.

Honestly my tear falls down when I read the dialogue "Even Heaven Is Hell Without You"

Hope you enjoy the song and feels what I'm feeling..

Japan Earthquake & Tsunami

My both cousin are safely back from Japan.Thank God.Let's all together help and pray for Japan.



Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars (Boyce Avenue acoustic/piano cover)

I fell in deep love with this song!

I wish someday my prince charming would sing this song and ask me "Will You Marry Me"

I LOVE YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE

Let's Break Up

我3年的长头发

我跟他分手了3年都没有剪过头发。我是想当他如有一天回到我身边还可以吻到我的头发 因为他最喜欢吻我的头发香。

今天我不知道为什么突然很想要用一把剪刀狠狠的剪下去。我拜托了我的好姐妹，她是发形师。

感觉很爽快，很新鲜。我想我知道他真的不会回来了。

双子女。。就是本小姐我！

送给我的阳光美少男-情人节礼物

我想不到要送你什么才会让你阳光的微笑再次灿烂起来。我不敢说我很了解你，我认识你11年了 起码你最初的单纯，最真实的，最灿烂的那个笑容我有亲眼目睹。我不是说你现在过得不开心 但比起你最初那个笑容 我觉得你当年笑起来更好阳光。

你知道我最怕望着你好眼睛，你偏偏要我望着你说话。我不知道为何你的眼睛会让我小路乱撞。你的笑容更加厉害 我快要受不了。你的一切我都要知道 我都要了解 我都要跟随。

我只好用我亲手做的小甜点送你。我没有要你称赞我什么，我只想你能自然的再次从心笑出来。情人节快乐哦，我的阳光美少男。

SHIT!!!!!

Guess what, yes I've gotten my Bonus Pay but I did not buy the camera.Why??Well I went to Genting Highlands and of course for the gambling part.I've lose RM800!Yes..it's RM800.I was about to win RM1000 but I did not stop and I lose it all in the end.I've learned a lesson and I'm sure to control myself next time!

Sony T99

My new baby coming soon after I've gotten my bonus pay~~~Yeah

我们的真心

我开始想起当初我们一起搭巴车去JOHOR的事。如果我们没有吵架，如果我没有自己先走，如果我们还在一起。。。我们应该结婚生子了吧。我承认是我没用 是我不能忍耐受苦的日子 是我太现实。

现在我有自己的车 自己的生活，但是我却不开心。人真的很贪心，想要钱财又要快乐。我无法让你分享我的喜怒哀乐。

最近我都有个喝晚茶的习惯。一个人坐在嘛嘛档 喝杯不怎么好喝的冰茶 幻想你就在我眼前，我的心   真的真的流泪了。

不知道她也会为你半夜下橱吗？好吃吗？有比我的菜好吗？

生日快乐

我有看到你和她的照片。希望你每一年的生日都开开心心。祝你生日快乐，身体健康，工作顺利。